april fools.

hahahaha. it was a great day for me.

well first of all, korea is 13 hours ahead of the mountain time here in the US so i already pulled a joke on some of my friends in korea last night~ saying that i'm in korea and two of them actually really fell for it. they were like "where are you? let's meet!! i miss you!" hahah. i love them dearly♥ they are so cute. hehe (:

i went to school and whoa goodness. it was a lot of deltasigs at the same spot we always hang out at the same time. hahah. it was good seeing them again^^ well so i went to class all late cuz i was talking to the pledges for their social coming up this friday~ and when i got to my class...

i sat down next to haruka, as always.. and we hardly ever pay attention in this class so we were writing notes to each other again.. and then she wrote "i have 3 big news for you" so i was like "what is it?" and she wrote down that laura is pregnant with a twin! that's 2 news. and then the last one was that she got a boyfriend. hahah. i was like who is it!!! and then i remembered we had this joke that i'm supposed to get a boyfriend a month after she gets one, since her birthday is a month before me. so i was like, i have a month to find a boyfriend then? and then she said yeah. and then.... time goes by... and at the end of our 2nd class, marketing, omgosh it hit me that it was april fools. i started giggling and she was like what? and i wrote on a paper (since it was during class) "your boyfriend thing... april fools huh!?" and she nodded and started laughing like crazy. and then the class was over, good timing! i laughed out loud soooooo hard. omgosh i felt so dumb. it was soooo funny. i can't believe i fell for something. i usually don't fall for ANYTHING! goodness.. it was fun though. hehe (:

then after, my dad picked me up and he said he was hungry so we headed to IHOP (: ahh it was so good. nowadays i can eat nonstop. seriously, what the heck has happened to me? is there a bum in my stomach or sumthin? gosh i eat so much. i get full but i still eat more.. its crazyy.. i gained so much weight ):

anyways. funfun times.

tell me about yur april fools stories~♥

going back to school after a short spring break...

this spring break was absolutely pointless. usually i'd have some good time with friends or family but this year wasn't like that. but i got to go to the revival and had at least one day of family time (easter, since the mall is closed) without worries so it was alright..

hMmm. well. i guess i need to get back on my school work now. i've become so lazy during this spring break. i need to get away from the laziness. i need to bring up my grades. i need to study everyday instead of doing it the night before the exam.. ):

80's theme party. this friday. so excited. went shopping at goodwill and savers. i don't go to those places so it was crazy hahah. they had a lotta stuff.. whoa. lol. i was gonna dress up the typical way. a poofy skirt with leggings, high heels and a shirt hanging off one shoulder and a side ponytail. BUT my mom found me this 80s looking dress so i'm gonna wear that and this ivory color not-so-high heels. a little shoulder bag i should call it, and pearl earrings, bracelet and necklace. hairdo? i'm not sure yet. makeup? probably thicker than usual. not sure about these yet but i wanted the pledges to have their social with the 80s theme so i could dress up and i was so happy to hear that they decided on this theme. (:

oh yesterday. i didn't have anything to teach for the girls.. tsk, bad teacher. but i love art and craft so i decided to make something and tell a story. a story that ALL CHRISTIAN SHOULD KNOW but these girls tend to forget it.. -_- so yeah. i decided to make a world that God created. i wanted to make it with what He made each day for 6 days but the girls can never listen to me so i just let them draw whatever they wanted. i made them tear out papers into little pieces and glue them on the paper for the sky. the girls couldn't focus and they started just talking so i fixed it all and then i let them draw flowers since they're such girls and they like drawing rather than coloring.. its a weird fact i found out as i was teaching them for over a year now. hahah. anyways. so they drew a whole buncha flowers and i glued 'em on the paper. its so funny cuz the tree is touching the sun that kaelin drew, and kaelin's flowers are super tall, they touch the sky. hahah. it's really good though. i love my girls. sometimes. they can get super annoying though. ♥

grass: christy
sky: all the girls
tree: me
sun: kaelin
big flowers with the smileys: kaelin
bees and butterflies: christy
colorful flowers: rachel
tulips: priscella
small flowers: megan

i like who i am. -penelope

i also love myself as who i am (: God gave me everything i have, just for myself. not for anyone else but for me. i appreciate everything that He's given me and i know He loves me as who i am and so do i! God is awesome.

to be honest, i was never so happy with myself. no attractiveness that gets any boys, no good personality that got me along with a lot of girls, as a matter of fact i had a lot of arguments with a lot of people back in the days. i can see how much they hated me. oh i understand them very well. i was so immature and um.. immature. yes. i acted so stupid. i wonder now if any of my friends back then were ever "real friends". they probably sugar-coated everything they said to me.. maybe. maybe a few were real friends.. i duno. its just a past.

right now, although i'm still a bit immature, i think i can see things out there more clearly and know how to judge things. i know how to fix myself if i have to. i know how to be in the other people's shoes. i know how to get along with different types of people. i know how to get people to trust me. i know who to trust and who not to. i know i know.. yeah i do know a lot more things than i used to. but i'm still learning more and more as i grow up. (:

an oppa i know made me realize that i have something great that not a lot of people have. the ability to smile at all times and to make others happy.

"How can you keep your energy up for others? In other words, how can I be excited about my life and share my life with others like you? As for me, I many times tend to keep myself away from others because I have too many things that I need to solve myself without telling anybody. I can't really smile until I solve all those and it's not going to be soon to be done with them. In fact, those stuffs are not that serious though. What's the secret of your smile?!!? Tell me^^ Are you in medication?"

hahaha. this man.. hahah. i couldn't stop laughing. i thought to myself. hmm, do i have a secret of my smile? do i really smile all the time? i could think about all the times that i got mad at my mom and all the sad times when i cried like a little baby.. but i remembered more of myself smiling. i do smile a lot. i do laugh a lot. i love laughing & smiling. have you ever heard of this phrase, "you're not smiling because you're happy. you're happy because you're smiling"? i think it's so true. i think everytime i smiled or laughed, i became more happy. it's like a drug or sumthin. hahah. anyways. yeah i do have feelings and all but i guess i like to keep myself smiling a lot so i can be happy (:

hmhmm. first day of the revival was great. great to see my lovely girls and.. girls. a few boys. as in, kids. lol. i'm happy to be able to praise and worship God again with all the youth groups in el paso. tomorrow will be another great day. i'll post pictures up after tomorrow. can't go on friday cuz i have to work ): oh wells.

♥

oh i love my kids. hahah

we had a combined service because of the communion? 성찬식. so the kids are like all moving around during the service (which was... yeah annoying but they're kids oh well.) and then my little megan~ aw she's so cute. when it was really quiet, she was all, "are we done?" hahah. she's so adorable. so cute! lol.

anyways. yeah after the service, i let them eat lunch (oh gosh we had the BEST food ever. the ahjoomas at my church make the bestestest korean food) and then i lined them up and they had the easter egg hunt lol. megan is too little to find things by herself so i helped her and she ended up having almost the most of them. hahah. so i let her share with her sister and at first she was like no~ but then i said "megan i found them for you so you want me to take them or do you want to share with kaelin?" and she finally shared with her. hahah. and then i brought them all together and said "now you have to share with your teachers!" and then you can just imagine their faces. they were like "no! why?" hahahah. so i said "because we have to share~ we're christians~" hahah. then i told them i like the coconut filled chocolates and then there it is everyone giving me every single one of the coconut filled chocolates. hahah.  gotta love 'em ♥

after church, my family has this tradition to spend time together since the mall is closed. so we went to cinemark to watch a movie. we were gonna watch "jumper"? but then haena told us that it sucks so we ended up watching "penelope" and it was really cute. i liked it~♥

now i'm home. sitting here. doing.. absolutely nothing. i wanna go out to dinner. hahah. i felt really skinny today cuz what i wore made me feel like it but i feel like eating much more. ew fattie~ hahah.

okayy i'm done talking. i'm outtie. byebye♥

okay.. so i guess i'm coming back to xanga now too.

i miss writing here about all the exciting things that happen in my life.

i read over my old entries and they're all such good memories. i could laugh again about the stupidest things ever. xanga is great. lol.

well. i've changed so much. over a year. wow. that's how long i haven't used this for.

i'm the typical "college girl" now. yup. it's not necessarily all that bad but i did change a lot.

i do party, yes. i've always been the social butterfly but i guess now i show it more.

i'm now in the most awesome fraternity ever called delta sigma pi and i love my deltasigs. they're my family and my life. i can't live without them ♥

i'm unofficially a junior. i'm a sophomore by credit but taking junior courses (: can you say over-achiever? yes. hehehe. but the classes right now are the hardest classes ever. i'm not failing but i do have bad grades. who would've thought sharon could get bad grades. hahah jk. but seriously, they are just way too bad for.. me. ):

hmm what else. oh. i want to work for Deloitte. so badly. i got an interview with them a couple of weeks ago and they haven't contacted me yet and i'm so nervous to find out. i really want to get it cuz i'm not interested in any other big 4 accounting firms. only if they knew...

let's see.. boys. love life. a lot of changes. i did like some boys over a year but not as much as i used to be with boys. goodness i remember the old me who was obsessed with 'em. now i'm like eh, whatever. yeah i mean girls can't live without boys. especially me. i couldn't live a minute without liking someone. now i kinda don't even care. they don't like me either anyways. hahah. well.. to be honest, there is someone kinda in my mind right now but i can't say i like him. it's confusing, it's a weird feeling. only i know. yet i can't explain. hahahah. yeah..

spring break. yayy. i should be happy that i'm on my spring break right now. because i've been waiting for it.. cuz i needed some rest/break away from school. but now that i have no school, i have to help out my parents at work. in fact, i just got home from work. why is everyone at work so stupid? these kids are just so stupid... but i've learned to calm myself and to be patient so it's good i guess. but seriously.. i sound like racist everytime i talk about work and the employees..

i need my greencard. there will be so much change in my life if i had it. give me one, now. ):

i want to go to the revival. i'm praying for it. just like i did last year. hope God hears and answers my prayers.

speaking of prayers.. i went to sae byuk gi doh hwae. early morning prayer service, i guess. if translated in english. i didn't know until today i had so much to pray about. wow. my list was neverending. i'm glad i woke up early and went to church for it. definitely worth it. i need to pray more. read bible more. and become a better christian.. what the heck happened to me..? i used to be the goodygood christian. now i'm... no one.

anyways. gotta go work tomorrow so i'ma rest a bit and sleep i guess~ hopefully i'll keep up with xanga, even with my busy school schedule.